So lately my thoughts have circled around crazy ideas. There is a list of things I want to do but just haven't had the people to do them with. There are only two people I can think of that would ever agree to do these things with me. One is my love! He is always willing to do just about anything, and I think that part of him has rubbed off on me, his sense of adventure. Unfortunately, he lives far far away from me. The second person is an old friend whom I really don't talk to anymore. Difference in ideas. The sad part is that these two people are the only people that have ever convinced me they care about me at all. I've had friends, I mean, we all have friends. They change as we grow up, but we have them. None of my friends have ever made me feel like these two people did though. I know for a fact that my love would come to me if I really needed him, and this old friend came to me when I needed them most before.

That's the kind of thing I miss. But fear not for it will be achieved!

I think things are going to pick up for me.